Just what is wrong with my family? I was sleeping halfway when they my grandma woke me up and ask me to write 4D for my mum. I was reluctant because I still feel no strength when grandma doesn't care and kept on shouting until I write for her. I have been telling them to quit gambling since sec 3. I see the effect of it and advice them to stop.. but do they listen? The winnings makes them blind..hundreds of dollars are gone due to it every month. When will I ever get a digital camera? I think I should buy a piggy bank. So that my grandma couldn't any how use my saving to buy any crap 4D or toto. It just waste money and where's my ang pao money.. She also uses it. When adults say : I will help you keep your ang pao money. I doesn't really trust them.

I going to yunnan for 2 weeks soon. I guess it should be a good time for me to relax and enjoy myself. I hope I can buy a china map.. and some souvenir back.. =D

♥ and i stand in the
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Exams over! but holidays kinda short due to YEP... Anyway, I watched Jumper today with JXST Jun Xuan straits times. lol.. That movie is cool and funny in some part.. jump here jump there jump everywhere o.0 then watch death note 1 and 2.. the storyline damn interesting. haha, L is high on sugar is Kira is very evil.

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3.31 am now... Studying cell bio.. no mood to study... I will just use my imagination to come out with the answers.. That's how I remember for Bio O lvl...What happen when u breathe in? XD I will just take a breathe in and all the answers came to my head XD easy isn't it? no need to memorise.. lolol I'm talking crap.. All the best to all the ppl studying for exam..

I shouldn't be blogging now right? tml's the exam and I'm having cold and headache.. It's so lonely during the night.. but that's why I like to study.. No noise, except the instrumental music.. My family has been telling me to sleep early and not study late.. but what can I do? The constant phone calls from my Aunt, they EVEN ask me to write 4D or Toto for them during the exam period.. wth.. dun they even understand how I feel? I reckon I never speak more than 160 words per day with my family, which is the sms limit.

Nothing's alright.. Drowning my sorrows with music.. No one seems to care.. no one to play games with me at home. Almost all my PS2 games are single-player.. I'm a single child. People say single child are fortunate because they can have all the love of his or her parents.. but both of them work.. I never had a dinner with my mum and dad together.. Dinner to me is just like solitary time. I ate my dinner anywhere.. beside my laptop or on my sofa while watching tv.. I finished the dinner quickly.. I don't want to dwell long in that time alone.

Today a provision uncle talked to me, He asked "Buy dinner?" I said yeah.. He replied "Food that you cook yourself taste best" That really carry truth in it.. I like the fried rice that I cook, I wish my grandma would teach me how to cook.. I wanna try cooking spaghetti next time.. I seriously miss home-cooked meal..I miss the stewed chicken, the steamed fish that my grandma used to cook.. I wish someone will cook for me next time..

I read a joke some time earlier..
Wife : Do you want dinner?
Husband: What are my choices?
Wife: Yes or No.

lol..the husband no choice liao XD

As years went past, events has taught me and shaped my character..I used to be demanding.. I want this and that.. and my parents would try their best to get me that. But now I only buy what's required.. I'm 18 years old now.. It's time to get my life in control.

Labels: Silence is Scary

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...................nothing to post...........
What am I doing now? I should be studying now and not think about her..Damn.. I cried for her again...
My heart is in pieces.. heartbroken.. down with a cold during exam period.. what could be worse..
I don't feel like talking to anyone..

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♥ and i stand in the
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Today stats paper is just irritating.. I made a very careless mistake in the regression question.. nvm.. it's over..

I dun have the mood to study now.. I lost my appetite as well.. ah... I just don't know what to say.. Just let me bury my sorrow with study.. Some things are best left unspoken..

Perhaps you have already like someone.. But my heart is still with you.. I wish you happiness..

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Tell me I'm bored...

You Belong in Fall

Intelligent, introspective, and quite expressive at times... You appreciate the changes in color, climate, and mood that fall brings Whether you're carving wacky pumpkins or taking long drives, autumn is a favorite time of year for you

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LOL World's shortest personality test.. o.0

Your Personality Profile

You are dependable, popular, and observant. Deep and thoughtful, you are prone to moodiness. In fact, your emotions tend to influence everything you do. You are unique, creative, and expressive. You don't mind waving your freak flag every once and a while. And lucky for you, most people find your weird ways charming!

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lol.. Exams are coming.. destress by doing quizzes XD

How You Live Your Life

You are honest and direct. You tell it like it is. You're laid back and chill, but sometimes you care too much about what others think. You prefer a variety of friends and tend to change friends quickly. You have one big dream in your life, and you never lose sight of it.

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Woooooo...

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Your Five Factor Personality Profile

Extroversion: You have medium extroversion. You're not the life of the party, but you do show up for the party. Sometimes you are full of energy and open to new social experiences. But you also need to hibernate and enjoy your "down time." Conscientiousness: You have medium conscientiousness. You're generally good at balancing work and play. When you need to buckle down, you can usually get tasks done. But you've been known to goof off when you know you can get away with it. Agreeableness: You have high agreeableness. You are easy to get along with, and you value harmony highly. Helpful and generous, you are willing to compromise with almost anyone. You give people the benefit of the doubt and don't mind giving someone a second chance. Neuroticism: You have low neuroticism. You are very emotionally stable and mentally together. Only the greatest setbacks upset you, and you bounce back quickly. Overall, you are typically calm and relaxed - making others feel secure. Openness to experience: Your openness to new experiences is high. In life, you tend to be an early adopter of all new things and ideas. You'll try almost anything interesting, and you're constantly pushing your own limits. A great connoisseir of art and beauty, you can find the positive side of almost anything.

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zzzZZ I'm just bored and did some quiz I saw at Kahkay's blog.

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free. In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored. You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy. You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance. Your ideal relationship is comforting. You crave a relationship where you always feel warmth and love. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage. In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

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I don't know what to post... exams are coming real fast..

I miss you, Simone..

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I cried reading this: Taken from www.loviinggonlyyyouu.blogspot.com/ Feb 06 post by shu yun

Her post is about her grandfather.

I'm very close to my grandma.. What will I do without her.. My tears flowed down my cheeks as I read it. My grandmother took care of me since I was young.. I have shouted at her several times when she sides my cousin and now I have regretted it.. She is still healthy and living together with my family. I'm closer to her than my parents.. I couldn't imagine life without her.. It's 3 am now.. Earlier on, she told me to sleep early.. but I didn't listen to her. She bought dinner for me whenever I'm stuck to the laptop and help me refill my water.. I'm really grateful for that. I miss her homemade meal..She doesn't want to cook as it is tiring for her. When will be the next time I have homemade meal again?

Now I want to spend some time with her by going out to tiong with her on every weekend to have dinner..She can't walk fast but I didn't mind it. I would just walk slowly with her. A bunch of teenagers walked behind my grandma when we were are the mrt walkway. I heard them saying: 'wah lau, so slow'. Can't they think about when they are old and weak next time, people call them the same thing, how would they feel?

I hold my grandma's wrinkled hand and cross the road, I feel the warmth in her hand for she has guided me through my life. I get into fights and bully people when I was in primary school. Even though I was in the wrong, she would argued until it's not my fault..She ask me to changed and I heeded her advice.. Even in secondary school 1, she would bring medicine to the school when I'm sick and wait for me in the canteen. Each time I would feel ashamed and be laughed by my classmate.. Like yi jie<--- Thinking back. I was silly. What I see now is a caring grandma hoping that her grandson will get well soon. Whenever I got punished by my dad, you would protect me and scold him back. I still remembers once you used umbrella to hit my dad when he punished me.

Grandma, even though you can't read, I just wanna say I love you. I want you to watch me grow up.

Labels: My Grandmother

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I dunno what got into me these days.. I wanna go back to those days where I used to have carefree life, just like when I was a kid, even climbing up the stairs seems so fun. I'm expected to be sensible and matured at the age of 18. I will not give up. I must have more courage in me.

The Lunar New Year seems short to me.. Slowly, people are returning to their normal daily life... The same feeling when I went to bugis alone last time to do the essay.. I feel the loneliness and silence. I don't know why adults like to buy 4D and toto all the stuff.. The reasons they often gave is to buy a hope. I just can't stand it when they just waste money just like that. Why do people drink, gamble and smoke? It not only harm themselves but their families too.. I have made a life promise to myself that I will not smoke, gamble and drink. Well, maybe count Wine out for special ocasion..

Will you be my valentine? Simone, I love you..

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Halfway to Liberation.. and the day is closing in..Today I have a strong sense of motivation to do what I want to do. I can't believe that I sweep the floor of the living room ,my parents and my room.. That's a miracle..

Yesterday I celebrate my birthday with my parents and my grandma at 12 am! LOL.. It's a blackforest cake with (blueberry or prune) fillings. I can't tell the difference.



The Cake without name, cuz I ate it before I remember to take photo of it. XD



Me and my family.

Now come poly have Birthday Bash.. o.0 18 light punches haha.. Thx to everyone today. =) and CNY is coming.. hong bao hong bao use to buy a new wallet..

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I'm worried that she likes someone else le.. =X I said I should not think about her until after exam but I can't..I wonder what will her reply be when I tell her.. I feel that I'm not good enough for her.. I dun really have the mood the study now.. argh crap.. tml got two test.. just hope that I dun flunk them.. Why is it so difficult to like someone.. Fate likes to play with people's destiny.. Where's my true love? Higher hope will end up in more pain..

Love Hurts..

I feel so lonely during the weekends. My parents are out at work, left with me and my grandma.. Sometimes she went to yishun to visit my cousin. And I'm left alone at home.. Why didn't I have a sibling.. at least there's someone to share my problems and worries.. people say that single child can have all the care from the parents.. as in care? or just fulfilling material needs and comfort.. I'm willing to save more money if they can just spend them more time with me.. 2 more days to my birthday.. 18 years old.. As years gone by, I feel that my birthday are becoming less important. It seem just like a normal day to me..nothing special on that day.. I can't even remember what happened last year during my birthday.. Thx christina and simone for the sweets.. even though it's sour on the outside but it's sweet on the inside.. I know how to counter it liao.. XD just keep chewing..

Labels: Deep thoughts

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I went back to sec sch co today.. wow.. a lot of new members in cello too.. XD, after that, Me yi jie yong huang and qi you went tiong.. I went there to buy some blank cds while they are eating. I'm creating a compilation CD for her. Next, they went to play maple la.. -_- I went to cut my hair in the meanwhile.. =D

Next, I study study.. boring boring part.. skip

I went to an xi at such an early time.. and continue study a bit there.. today's a bit.. I dunno how to describe it.. ok... back to project.. I dun really have the mood to study...

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Koon Kit

likes: New Age music, CS, Cycling, Cello, NPCO, EOM, Life Science. still looking for the one in my life.


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